Thursday, November 18, 2004

Song of your life

Like everyone else, I sometimes get a song caught up in my head. It happens. It is either a catchy pop tune, or some sort of ballad you heard, or whatever...can literally be anything. It starts floating around in your head and you can't get it out, no matter how many times you listen to it. You find yourself singing it when you walk around, humming it on Metro, or maybe just thinking about it in your spare moments. Sometimes you don't mind, particularly if it's a good song. Sometimes you would do anything to get it out. Hey! It to admit it...

That said, I think I've already said before that there are times when I hear a song and something really clicks and not only can I not get enough of the song, but it starts to take on a transcendant meaning to me. Something in the lyrics speaks to a part of my conscious or subconscious mind and I begin to connect with the song in both an emotional and intellectual way. The song becomes more than just a becomes a perfect instant of clarity and meaning - an encapsulation of whatever it is I'm feeling at the moment.

The trouble is...more often than not, I have trouble explaining why it is that this song is "speaking" to me. It just does.

And the funny thing is that this week, there are two. I sometimes go months between songs that I get seriously attached to, and even longer between songs that I would call "transcendant" in some way. And yet, I cannot get over these two songs speaking to me: "Best Imitation of Myself," by Ben Folds Five (off their self-titled first album) and "Kill" by Jimmy Eat World (off their new CD).

So...I'll just post some of the lyrics. I encourage you to check 'em out if you're really curious...but...I just feel today like putting this down. Stating it for the record, I suppose...

from: "Best Imitation of Myself" by Ben Folds Five

Did I make me up, or make the face till it stuck
I do the best imitation of myself

Maybe I'm thinking myself in a hole
Wondering, who I am when I ought to know
Straighten up now time to go
Fool somebody else, fool somebody else

And if my mind's somewhere else
You won't be able to tell
I do the best imitation of myself
Yes it's uncanny to see
You'd really think it was me
The best imitation of myself

and from "Kill" by Jimmy Eat World, it's even simpler. The line is:
I know what I should do, but I just can't walk away
I do know what I should do. I should walk away - I'm already starting to regret not having done so sooner. It would have been easier to walk away then.

Like I speaks to me a bit. I can't explain it better without going into all kinds of personal stuff that, while some of my readers know...not everybody does. And I swore to myself that some things were private matters that I needed to keep to myself.

Needless to say, I've been feeling a little down today. Maybe it's just b/c I'm so tired. But...I think there's more to it than that.



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