Friday, February 25, 2005

Thoughts on the eve of my 31st birthday

Well...technically, the day before, since the actual birthday itself is on Sunday, but...since I don't generall write blog entries over the weekend (and I'd much rather do this today than real work) it is! Besides...I'm in kind of a festive mood as I write this, listening to the Squirrel Nut Zippers and grooving in my office/, I might as well take advantage of it...

I've seldom enjoyed my birthdays. There are plenty of reasons why...I won't bother to list them. Last year, I did practically anything I could to avoid bringing attention to the fact that I was turning 30. I wasn't ashamed or anything...maybe just wary of being let down or something. Anyway...enough people have guilted me over last year that I've made (for me) a big deal out of 31. Two gatherings this weekend, and I'm strangely looking forward to the day itself (for a change).

For me, birthdays have always been an opportunity to reflect on the past year of my life, and even I have to admit that "30" was good to me. I lost a ton of weight in the last year - I look better than I have in years and I'm still falling on the scale. I've learned that I have some incredibly awesome friends whom I would do anything for and whom I trust implicitly. I've met some new friends who have become an important part of my life. I'm alive...I have a good job where people appreciate what I bring to the table...a roof over my head...and more books than I could possibly read. ;)

Don't get me wrong...if I wanted to, I could point out failures in the past year...but that would be looking backwards with regret and perhaps I'm just in a much better place that I'd rather focus on the future. "31" is going to be even better. After really are only as 'old' as you act and feel....and these days, I don't feel very old. I feel young. Alive.

Dare I say it?

I'm happy. :-)

So..."banjax451" wishes his alter-ego and RL writer a happy birthday, with (as Pooh would say) "many happy returns." Here's to another outstanding year.


At 5:55 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I had the honor of being present at banjax's first birthday--he was an incredible sight! No, I'm not biased- just a mom.


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