Friday, February 25, 2005

Thoughts on the eve of my 31st birthday

Well...technically, the day before, since the actual birthday itself is on Sunday, but...since I don't generall write blog entries over the weekend (and I'd much rather do this today than real work)...today it is! Besides...I'm in kind of a festive mood as I write this, listening to the Squirrel Nut Zippers and grooving in my office/hallway...so, I might as well take advantage of it...

I've seldom enjoyed my birthdays. There are plenty of reasons why...I won't bother to list them. Last year, I did practically anything I could to avoid bringing attention to the fact that I was turning 30. I wasn't ashamed or anything...maybe just wary of being let down or something. Anyway...enough people have guilted me over last year that I've made (for me) a big deal out of 31. Two gatherings this weekend, and I'm strangely looking forward to the day itself (for a change).

For me, birthdays have always been an opportunity to reflect on the past year of my life, and even I have to admit that "30" was good to me. I lost a ton of weight in the last year - I look better than I have in years and I'm still falling on the scale. I've learned that I have some incredibly awesome friends whom I would do anything for and whom I trust implicitly. I've met some new friends who have become an important part of my life. I'm alive...I have a good job where people appreciate what I bring to the table...a roof over my head...and more books than I could possibly read. ;)

Don't get me wrong...if I wanted to, I could point out failures in the past year...but that would be looking backwards with regret and perhaps I'm just in a much better place now...so that I'd rather focus on the future. "31" is going to be even better. After all...you really are only as 'old' as you act and feel....and these days, I don't feel very old. I feel young. Alive.

Dare I say it?

I'm happy. :-)

So..."banjax451" wishes his alter-ego and RL writer a happy birthday, with (as Pooh would say) "many happy returns." Here's to another outstanding year.

1 Comments:

At 5:55 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I had the honor of being present at banjax's first birthday--he was an incredible sight! No, I'm not biased- just a mom.

 

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